In this season, it’s been hard for me to find spaces quiet enough to allow God to speak to me. This isn’t about daily scripture reading and studying or spending time in prayer — those seem to be the easy disciplines, at least for me. I have the hardest time sitting and being still so I can hear from God.
I have more excuses and reasons for why this is my reality than you could ever imagine. I’m a mom who works full-time outside of the home...doesn’t that excuse work for everything? I operate on day-to-day survival mode 90% of the time, and I can’t remember many quiet moments in the midst of all of that. If you’ve met my 5 year old, you know quiet doesn’t exist if she’s around. 😉
Here’s a hard truth: my days are consumed with pockets of frivolously wasted time. I have a problem (dare I call it an addiction?)....I love noise and activity. I can’t stand downtime. It’s almost impossible for me to just BE. I believe that is Satan. He enjoys the fact that the more jam-packed my schedule is, the more likely I am to miss any opportunities to be still. The louder the noise of activity becomes, the less likely I am to even hear God’s voice.
Unless I’m quiet, when am I giving my soul time to talk to God? What if there’s something He needs me to hear but I haven’t slowed down enough for Him to tell me?
I think I always feel this way at this time of year. So many things are pulling for my attention. For some reason this year it’s weighing heavier on my heart and I want to get ahead of it before it gets too out of hand.
In the midst of feeling this struggle this week, I got a message from an instagram friend that said:
“Good morning! I woke up with you and this song on my mind?!? I hope it encourages you today!”
The chorus of the song she sent reads:
“You fight for me, You always have, You always have
My victory, is in Your hands, is in Your hands
The God of Heaven is my defense!”
Here I’ve been, thinking I wasn’t hearing from God, and He used a friend, who definitely didn’t know I was feeling that way, to remind me that He will always fight for me. Always.
In this season, I may just not be able to find quiet very often. But that does not mean that I won’t hear from Him. He will find ways to get through to me, just like He did this week. Ways to open my eyes to how much I need to find quiet and find rest in Him.
If we try and wait until our circumstances are peaceful enough to listen to God, that will literally never happen. We just have to be willing. Willing to be listening. Willing to be ready to see Him in the small things. Willing to not only share our heart with Him, but allow Him to share what He has for us.
May this verse be an encouragement to you: “The Lord will fight for you while you keep still.” Exodus 14:14
He IS fighting for you friends!