Earlier this year at my daughter’s preschool graduation, all the students had roles and Amelia’s was to be one of the song leaders. I watched as she sang confidently and loudly, and my heart was bursting with pride know that she’s using the gifts God gave her even though she can’t even comprehend that yet. I think about God’s heart swelling even bigger than mine did because HE is the one who has gifted each of us so uniquely.
We have a 5 year old and an 18 month old, which means we are just getting into the years of discipline and correction, and every time I feel like I’ve told my daughter the same thing a million times, I think I get a glimpse of how God must feel to parent us, and the lens that he must see us through.
When my son ignores my pleas and requests to “come here” and just continues to be distracted by everything else in sight, it’s probably similar to how God just watches all day and waits for us to spend time with Him because of how distracted we are by everything around us.
When we are at the store and my almost 5 year old just insists she NEEDS everything in sight, I’m reminded of how we sometimes wait to talk to God until we NEED something right that minute, when we should be taking all our thoughts and feelings to him, good and bad.
A few weeks ago I bought Amelia a shirt that said “Be a buddy not a bully”. She had worn it several times and then she asked me what it said. I never even took the time to tell her what her shirt said, I thought if I just put her in a shirt with a kind saying it would somehow make her a kind person?!
When our children are cruel or mean to others, we get a small taste of how God feels when we act jealous, or envious, or we gossip.
When my son wants to climb on all the furniture, or doesn’t realize how dangerous it is to try and run away in a parking lot, I’m always reminded that no matter how many times I correct him, many many years of the same thing lie ahead. I can see how God feels when we ignore the commands He’s given us we and make terrible life choices and later face the consequences.
The beautiful thing about those decisions or life choices we make and then regret is that just like a parent, God uses those experiences to help us grow and to help us realize the important role that he plays in our lives. Without His grace, it would be easy to feel like the burden of raising tiny humans is too much to handle. Because of His grace, we can live our days knowing that we are exactly the kind of mom our children needed, and that is SO comforting.